LONELINESS IS….

When your close friends who would be all ears are far away and they don’t like to write emails or letters (because some people were born with no desire to write at all), and phone calls or transportation tickets are expensive.

When your friends who relatively are physically nearer have lives like a machine where they don’t even have enough time to rest and take care of themselves, so they work all day and crash at night and get stressed out and feel unhappy and too busy to keep in touch with you.

When you have great friends who would love to meet with you but the traffic sucks, and it is so unfair to drive for four hours just to be with your buddies for two hours.

When you can’t really connect with people around you because each of us are too absorbed in our own troubles that we want to be the one talking and not listening, and too distracted to care for others.

When you finally have a chance to get together with your friends and you realize that we have changed a lot, and you feel so out of place.

When you have so much to say and the first thing that comes to your mind is not, “Oh, this is so exciting, I will tell Jessica about this.” Nor “Hmm…I wonder what Gary thinks about this.” But “I will write this on my diary.” Or “I will post this on my blog.”


Living in Jakarta