INSIDE OUT

In is different than out
Inside is sometimes opposite of outside
Inside she is painfully shy, but outside she looks arrogant and aloof
She truly cares, but often she doesn’t know how to share
She might seem so full-concentrated all the time,
That her friends once asked her what the secret of not being sleepy during the lecture was.
And she just smiled while saying, “I don’t know. I get sleepy very often too.”
But the secret is, she has another world to escape, where her mind is no longer distracted and her thoughts could wander freely. Her eyes might be wide open but she is dreaming.
And those dreams keep her happy, motivate her to reach them with her tiny hands and her faith in the big hands of God.
That’s why she still can smile to the cruel world. People think she must be strong and care-free, that once her friend asked her whether she ever felt sad.
If only they knew, that she cries too at night.
She feels low sometimes, but it doesn’t show.
She can get angry or upset with you, but you can’t really tell, unless you know her very well.
Many people think she’s smart, and tell her that she is talented, a rare gem, but she often feels stupid, unwanted and hopeless.
Some try to make her down on purpose, by being critical to her appearance, or choices, or being skeptical to her desire and ambition when all she needs is a supportive friend.
And sometimes it’s too much that it bugs her. But sometimes it gets lighter when she chooses not to listen to people. And instead, she remembers that she is loved by her Creator, no matter what And when she does, everything else that others say doesn’t matter anymore.